Saturday, August 19, 2006

i just dont know Whether this is boredom or frustration.
i began to get very rowdy. shouting on top of my lungs. rudeness overcontrolled me.
what had just happened to me?
yes, i am a loud person. but as sorry as i am, i dint asked to be like that.
paranoia. i think sex is better then suicide.
unpredictable me.
am i, Losing my Mind ?
Have i become hypochondriac?
i would love to hysterically prove that i'm still alive and kicking.
not this feelings. dark, doomed, forlorn, dead.
do u want to be the next lummox lunatic?
lunacy strikes ahead! FuCK!
i have/i need to endure this madness.
and no, i dont wished to be a maiden.

i want to be the next Manik Purwakrishna. La Luna.
retro pop music. something different.
a lil' bit jazzier and singing cute love songs to a sadder place,
exploring themes of long-distance longing and bittersweet breakups.

Uncertainty and Anxiety.

oh shit, i'm talking crap.

BabyDoLL's Written Sins @ 6:47 PM